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Tuesday, 21 July 2009

If I'm invisible, did this really happen?

Just quotes today, no intentional stealing done credit elsewhere. To everyone else who thinks the world revolves around them. Bitter, just like my coffee.

1.
Let your heart guide you.
It whispers, so listen closely

2.
If he’s the first thing you think of when you
wake up, the only thing you think of when you’re
awake, and the last thing you think of before you
sleep, then he is either really something special,
or that little heart of yours is a fool.

3.
'Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away.
And the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.
'Cause I know I'm good for something, I just haven't found it yet.

4.
I wonder what happens if I get to the end of the tunnel and there isn't a light.

5.
And you question my faith for the hundredth time
When you never had faith in me

6.
It’s hard to let go when you know there’s no safety net below
But you have to let go to be free to fall

7.
And I don’t want you to want to be with me because you thought you had a chance
But because you wanted to, before you thought there was a chance at all

8.
I don't like ass kissers, flag wavers or team players. I like people who buck the system. Individualists. I often warn people: "Somewhere along the way, someone is going to tell you, 'There is no "I" in team.' What you should tell them is, 'Maybe not. But there is an "I" in independence, individuality and integrity.'" Avoid teams at all cost. Keep your circle small. Never join a group that has a name. If they say, "We're the So-and-Sos," take a walk. And if, somehow, you must join, if it's unavoidable, such as a union or a trade association, go ahead and join. But don't participate; it will be your death. And if they tell you you're not a team player, congratulate them on being observant.

9.
And we danced foreheads pressed
Each second stripping a layer from our eyes
Until there was only a second left, and I pulled away
Because the second after that can not be taken back
And I’m not sure if I’m ready for that.

10.
I’m starting to understand
The only thing that will cancel out a pain that cannot be healed
Is a stronger, sharper, more pressing one
And with that truth will come my biggest lie

Wednesday, 01 July 2009

Super chick

Ohaaay guys, HUGE hiatus, life is playing tennis with me right now and trust me, I'm the ball. Not a huge post for you but I wanted to prove that I haven't forgotten Xanga! So a few random photos and some lyrics from superchik's song Stand in the Rain. Enjoyoyoyoy!

She never slows down.
She doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone, feels like its all coming down.

She won't turn around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground

Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown

And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she'll fall down

She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything she's running from, wants to give up and lie down.

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground

Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown

And one day, what's lost can be found
You stand in the rain

Tuesday, 28 April 2009

because Lemony Snicket knows his stuff...

Hey Guys, huge break but who out there noticed, I've only got one quote for you today, but it sure gives something to think about. All my muse is going into my scrapbook right now.
My family sucks. Ever feel like you'll never be good enough? I guess we have that in common if you do.

An Excerpt (sp?) from one of Lemony Snickets books, A Series of Unfortunate Events

The phrase "in the dark," as I'm sure you know, can refer not only to one's shadowy surroundings, but also to the shadowy secrets of which one might be unaware. Every day, the sun goes down over all these secrets, and so everyone is in the dark in one way or another. If you are sunbathing in a park, for instance, but you do not know that a locked cabinet is buried fifty feet beneath your blanket, then you are in the dark even though you are not actually in the dark, whereas if you are on a midnight hike, knowing full well that several ballerinas are following close behind you, then you are not in the dark even if you are in fact in the dark. Of course, it is quite possible to be in the dark in the dark, as well as to be not in the dark not in the dark, but there are so many secrets in the world that it is likely that you are always in the dark about one thing or another, whether you are in the dark in the dark or in the dark not in the dark, although the sun can go down so quickly that you may be in the dark about being in the dark in the dark, only to look around and find yourself no longer in the dark about being in the dark in the dark, but in the dark in the dark nonetheless, not only because of the dark, but because of the ballerinas in the dark, who are not in the dark about the dark, but also not in the dark about the locked cabinet, and you may be in the dark about the ballerinas digging up the locked cabinet in the dark, even though you are no longer in the dark about being in the dark, and so you are in fact in the dark about being in the dark, even though you are not in the dark about being in the dark, and so you may fall into the hole that the ballerinas have dug, which is dark, in the dark, in the park.

Saturday, 21 February 2009

such a delicate girl

mmk guys I gotz graphics for you, I got all these off xanga and none are mine so credit elsewhere! comment or subscibe or friends pleeeeeeeeease

Sunday, 08 February 2009

Natural stalker or inexperienced lover?

So I don't know how many of you saw this blog entry, but if you haven't you need to read it to understand what I'm about to say. (http://www.datingish.com/datingish/691607054/does-anyone-actually-like-hopeless-romantics/?page=8&jump=1474164645&leftcmt=1#1474164645)
Now I know EXACTLY what she's talking about, because I dated one of these so called "hopeless romantics".
We were just friends at first, then he asked me out in a really extravagent way, and in a way where I was completely put on the spot and in the spotlight. I don't like hurting people's feelings, and what he did seemed sweet though a little over the top but I figured he was just trying hard to impress me.
It didnt stop though. Some of the stuff he did for me was really nice, like making our dates interesting, but it would be ruined by me feeling embarrassed by/or him doing over the top things. He was constantly giving me gifts, or turning up at my work, and even when I told him it was a little scary and he needed to back off he didn't. He even rode to my house one night at 1pm on his bike. We hadn't even kissed yet. I eventually couldn't take it and broke it off.
Don't get me wrong, I am a romantic deep inside and enjoy the simple gestures, aka opening doors, holding umbrellas and pulling out chairs etc but, as someone whose pretty closeted about their feelings and enjoys being single, I can't understand that kind of behaviour at all. In moderation, a little adoration like that would be nice. Maybe say, once a month? Or, if they're really suble and casual about it, a little more. But then, there are girls out there who do the same thing to guys. I think it really depends on how were brought up and what we believe in, and how experienced we are.
I was this particular guy's first girlfriend, and I have this theory. Guys are not known to be emotional. In fact, their emotions can probably be stored in one pinky finger. But when it comes to relationships, a whole load of emotions come into play that even guys can't control. And so, not used to this much emotion, they go a little overboard and think that something is more serious then is actually is. Girls, who probably have to much emotion, tend to analyse an emotional situation more accurately and are less likely to have this problem. Which is why, when guys first experience this rush of emotion, they think it's true love, never going to feel this way again etc etc and, as physical creatures, express this by becoming over-bearing and obsessive. (no offense anyone, this opinion just comes from my own person observance and wonderings). And, if a guy is a natural romantic, they do romantic gestures, as many as they can cram into the few hours that exist in a day.
I think the question is, do romance-inclined guys that behave like this only do it because they are over-whelmed by the feelings they've never felt before as they are actually inexperienced in the matters of relationships, or are they in fact, naturally overbearing and obsessive? What do you guys think?